My copy of Jeff Chu’s new book arrived yesterday and I just had a chance to read the chapter that tells my story. I have to tell you, it is a bit weird to read your story in a book like that.
Jeff did a great job telling the story. It is accurate, and he demonstrates a lot of insight in how he tells the story.
Reading it was hard. Much of it covers a part of my life that I am not proud of. It really looks at one of the lowest times in my life. This is no hero story. Not by a long shot.
But it is my story. It is a real story.
I am also glad that my chapter is in the book. I lived for 17 years with a very big lie. Hiding was a soul-killing experience. So much so that I ended up in a total train wreck. I survived… and today I would say I have thrived — relationally, spiritually, and just about every way that you could. But 17 years is a long time to live with a lie. That is why I have embraced a discipline of transparency.
This chapter is a very open, raw, real look inside a very private window. Having it out there makes me feel vulnerable. It means I can’t side-step what happened or try and spin it away.
And that is a good thing.
A lot has changed in the two years since Jeff interviewed me. And a lot has changed over the past four years as well.
I will blog more about how things have changed and where I am at today over the next few weeks — but for now, I hope you read the (whole) book… and let me know what you think.